02-26-2014, 02:28 PM
Days 43 - 44 - 45
My "depression" seems to be gone. My productivity came back and I have now started working on my english, mainly to improve my accent. I feel like before I started AM. I cannot explain what this feeling is because I have no word to describe it, in english as well as in french. My mind is shouting at me "this is because it doesn't work !!!". Hopefully, I know it is working, I have changed in subtle ways (I now try not to give attention to others especially Natural Alpha Males because they are really annoying me now. But I still feel like they are above me socially speaking). But as subtle as those changes may be, they are still good changes and they tell me something is working in my mind. But I hope that the next stages will make big changes to my behavioral blueprint, I don't feel that alpha for the moment. But hey, something is ticking in my subconsious, I can feel it. I hope it will reveal itself soon !
That's all for today,
-Adri
My "depression" seems to be gone. My productivity came back and I have now started working on my english, mainly to improve my accent. I feel like before I started AM. I cannot explain what this feeling is because I have no word to describe it, in english as well as in french. My mind is shouting at me "this is because it doesn't work !!!". Hopefully, I know it is working, I have changed in subtle ways (I now try not to give attention to others especially Natural Alpha Males because they are really annoying me now. But I still feel like they are above me socially speaking). But as subtle as those changes may be, they are still good changes and they tell me something is working in my mind. But I hope that the next stages will make big changes to my behavioral blueprint, I don't feel that alpha for the moment. But hey, something is ticking in my subconsious, I can feel it. I hope it will reveal itself soon !
That's all for today,
-Adri
