Spiral's BAMM Journal

[Spiral]

Stage 5 ended on a real rough note, but as I awoke this morning life felt much more calm and most of all easier. Stage 5 worked on alot of things including self sabotage and confidence. These are all areas that have lots of unfinished business and it hurt to realize this. I know I'm not perfect and I KNOW that I have alot of work to do before I can say I am the man I've always wanted to be, but just when I think the climb becomes easier it's still just as hard and challenging. I want to let go of control of all things outside of myself and I'm having a difficult time doing this which is making it hard for me to be attentive, calm and present minded. I am moving forward at a painfully slow pace and I'm beginning to be sick of this.