05-25-2013, 07:58 PM
Been having a pretty productive last few days on personal projects. Slow and steady. I can't say the same for the full-time job. I'm actually about 65% done with my next show that goes out in a month so I'm really not worried about that. I'm glad I don't have alot to do at work because it's really hard to do things that I don't want to do. I am alway aware of the things I have to do and I do make time to do them. for personal matters though I don't let time slip so easily. I do that shit as soon as it is possible. Personal stuff meaning pretty much anything outside of work like my business, drums and self awareness stuff.
All in all pretty good. I have been seizing the day! Not as much as I would like to be but I'm still progressing. No more stand stills. I see something that will help me move past fear and I go and put myself in the position of letting myself move past that fear. However that may be.
I had a very good meditation session just now. Basically the same experience I had last time I really did a heavy concentrated meditation. I couldn't really quiet my mind (it's been hard on BAMM) but my breathing was well controlled and I remained conscious of it. since my mind wasn't so quiet I was just having some random thoughts. most of them were wild images. Things like blood streams, energy particles, random people I have met and have not met. I was also focusing hard on viewing myself outside of myself and completely dissociating myself with the world as we know it. I got to a point where I almost passed out but I caught myself and instead went into a deeper state. not much deeper but deep enough to where I began feeling very nauseous and uncomfortable. I decided it was time to wake up and get back to reality. Never experienced that before and I'm confident as I gain more control in going into deeper states I'll have more control over my experience. total run time turned out to be somewhere between the 30-35 minute mark. I definitely want to see how far I can go with meditation.
Also, I grabbed a new book and am looking forward to reading it. Here it is:
http://www.amazon.com/Start-Escape-Avera...n+the+face
All in all pretty good. I have been seizing the day! Not as much as I would like to be but I'm still progressing. No more stand stills. I see something that will help me move past fear and I go and put myself in the position of letting myself move past that fear. However that may be.
I had a very good meditation session just now. Basically the same experience I had last time I really did a heavy concentrated meditation. I couldn't really quiet my mind (it's been hard on BAMM) but my breathing was well controlled and I remained conscious of it. since my mind wasn't so quiet I was just having some random thoughts. most of them were wild images. Things like blood streams, energy particles, random people I have met and have not met. I was also focusing hard on viewing myself outside of myself and completely dissociating myself with the world as we know it. I got to a point where I almost passed out but I caught myself and instead went into a deeper state. not much deeper but deep enough to where I began feeling very nauseous and uncomfortable. I decided it was time to wake up and get back to reality. Never experienced that before and I'm confident as I gain more control in going into deeper states I'll have more control over my experience. total run time turned out to be somewhere between the 30-35 minute mark. I definitely want to see how far I can go with meditation.
Also, I grabbed a new book and am looking forward to reading it. Here it is:
http://www.amazon.com/Start-Escape-Avera...n+the+face
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
