I have to constantly maintain an awareness of it... It is not natural but I know what it feels like. I will be presented with thoughts from outside my conscious awareness but I recognize it and consciously can decide to act on those thoughts immediately or not. With some, I will first assess the situation and see if its the right moment or if I should take action or not. These thoughts come to me in forms of jokes or questions when I talk with others or they come in the form of an idea or task. I see these thoughts and its no surprise most of them bring up fear.
And in my last post... When I was talking about other people giving me a hard time... I have contradicted myself. I love bantering and giving others a hard time. I just laugh and cheez while I do it and make sure they know I'm joking without saying I'm joking. But I feel most comfortable with self deprecating humor since its much funnier for everyone and its taught me a lot of great things.
I do seem a little nervous but I no longer gkqet butterflies. I jus realized I've been mostly soft spoken in smaller spaces but have no trouble raising the volume of my voice for a number of reasons ( not for gaining respect or bragging but for beingheard and understood properly )
And rainbow ...not sure I answered u properly. My daily routine isnt changeing.. I'm just naturally gravitating towards pleasant things.
And in my last post... When I was talking about other people giving me a hard time... I have contradicted myself. I love bantering and giving others a hard time. I just laugh and cheez while I do it and make sure they know I'm joking without saying I'm joking. But I feel most comfortable with self deprecating humor since its much funnier for everyone and its taught me a lot of great things.
I do seem a little nervous but I no longer gkqet butterflies. I jus realized I've been mostly soft spoken in smaller spaces but have no trouble raising the volume of my voice for a number of reasons ( not for gaining respect or bragging but for beingheard and understood properly )
And rainbow ...not sure I answered u properly. My daily routine isnt changeing.. I'm just naturally gravitating towards pleasant things.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
