So I havnt done any work except for the stuff for my company while on the road and I think it's given me some time to breath. I've also taken a break from fish oils and choline and I've slept the best I've ever slept the last couple of nights in the past 5 months.
So I'm around alot of hunters on this trip (like always) and as you can imagine some of these guys are very crazy and love giving each other a "hard time". I initially didn't care for the vibe from some of the hunters since it's not something I resonate with. I wasn't as smiley since I was so stressed from not sleeping and getting pissed about not sleeping so that clouded my mind with some negativity therefore I wasn't very smiley with others. I had no problem talking and asking questions but when they would "give me a hard time" I did not play along. Usually I will but I only like giving myself a hard time. I don't appreciate it when others give me a hard time as a way to build a relationship. Not my thing and I've talked about it before. I almost felt bad about this but I let it go and just let the hunters do what they wanted. It did go too far one time and I had to set one of them straight very politely. Other than that they were very welcoming and the most fun people I've ever been around so I'll give that to them
I was also complimented by one of the older gentlemen and he said "You are very professional".
I've decided to get a girl friend. I don't need one.. but it gets real lonely and I have a need to prove to myself that I am not longer a pussy. The OFSG in this program is bringing up alot of stuff such as fear of success and fear of being hurt emotionally. But I know I need to get on with my life. I need to squeeze all the juice out of every moment I possibly can. It's about the experience not only for myself but for others. This has slipped my mind but I'm reminded by a coworker. It really is about creating a good experience for not only yourself but others and that's what I must start living.
I'm usually pretty good about all this and grow alot when I'm not bothered by sinuses. When I can breathe clearly everything is perfect. So.. when this trip first started I had horrible allergies and I couldn't sleep. I was just in a pickle. But I had a great time because our new show host is awesome! She's super silly and high on life and I've decided that's someone who I want to be with. She's married to someone I work with but at least I know she has a very good personality and she's someone who I would date for sure. I can now look for a similar personality in other women as I encounter them.
I've also been in a flow state mostly when I don't have self doubting thoughts which have started to happen quite frequently with BAMM. This flow state allows me to stay focused with drive and purpose and it's very magnetic for women. I think some things through of course so I don't seem add but the goal here is to run like water. occasionally there's a choppy wave but that's ok. I will smooth out over time.
So I'm around alot of hunters on this trip (like always) and as you can imagine some of these guys are very crazy and love giving each other a "hard time". I initially didn't care for the vibe from some of the hunters since it's not something I resonate with. I wasn't as smiley since I was so stressed from not sleeping and getting pissed about not sleeping so that clouded my mind with some negativity therefore I wasn't very smiley with others. I had no problem talking and asking questions but when they would "give me a hard time" I did not play along. Usually I will but I only like giving myself a hard time. I don't appreciate it when others give me a hard time as a way to build a relationship. Not my thing and I've talked about it before. I almost felt bad about this but I let it go and just let the hunters do what they wanted. It did go too far one time and I had to set one of them straight very politely. Other than that they were very welcoming and the most fun people I've ever been around so I'll give that to them
I was also complimented by one of the older gentlemen and he said "You are very professional".
I've decided to get a girl friend. I don't need one.. but it gets real lonely and I have a need to prove to myself that I am not longer a pussy. The OFSG in this program is bringing up alot of stuff such as fear of success and fear of being hurt emotionally. But I know I need to get on with my life. I need to squeeze all the juice out of every moment I possibly can. It's about the experience not only for myself but for others. This has slipped my mind but I'm reminded by a coworker. It really is about creating a good experience for not only yourself but others and that's what I must start living.
I'm usually pretty good about all this and grow alot when I'm not bothered by sinuses. When I can breathe clearly everything is perfect. So.. when this trip first started I had horrible allergies and I couldn't sleep. I was just in a pickle. But I had a great time because our new show host is awesome! She's super silly and high on life and I've decided that's someone who I want to be with. She's married to someone I work with but at least I know she has a very good personality and she's someone who I would date for sure. I can now look for a similar personality in other women as I encounter them.
I've also been in a flow state mostly when I don't have self doubting thoughts which have started to happen quite frequently with BAMM. This flow state allows me to stay focused with drive and purpose and it's very magnetic for women. I think some things through of course so I don't seem add but the goal here is to run like water. occasionally there's a choppy wave but that's ok. I will smooth out over time.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
