Surprisingly I almost felt like crying earlier today.
I still get nervous around small crowds of people where there is no focused attention. My neighbor had like 10 friends over and they were just kind of standing there watching me come to my door. They were all dressed in the same outfit so I pleasntly asked what's the occasion? they told me they were heading to a choir concert to perform. At this time I just froze... and I wasn't thinking about anything but going into my house. And the way they were looking at me... (all girls btw) they wanted to rip my clothes off.. sooooooo I got somewhat spooked. I could have just chillaxed and asked them to sing me a song. Either way.. I've noticed alot of self talk because of the OFSG in this subliminal... I feel pretty good some days then other days I just don't feel like expressing myself. I can if I feel I have to for a professional meeting but if it's for my own purpose... i don't go out of my way to express myself unless I'm at a super market speaking with a cashier or talking with a store clerk. I'm clouded with limiting beliefs it's sickening. I know why I almost cried to. It's a personal matter and I won't mention it here.
The indecision to take action lately is draining me.
Other than that I'm productive as hell and carving a new path as hard and cleanly as I can.
I still get nervous around small crowds of people where there is no focused attention. My neighbor had like 10 friends over and they were just kind of standing there watching me come to my door. They were all dressed in the same outfit so I pleasntly asked what's the occasion? they told me they were heading to a choir concert to perform. At this time I just froze... and I wasn't thinking about anything but going into my house. And the way they were looking at me... (all girls btw) they wanted to rip my clothes off.. sooooooo I got somewhat spooked. I could have just chillaxed and asked them to sing me a song. Either way.. I've noticed alot of self talk because of the OFSG in this subliminal... I feel pretty good some days then other days I just don't feel like expressing myself. I can if I feel I have to for a professional meeting but if it's for my own purpose... i don't go out of my way to express myself unless I'm at a super market speaking with a cashier or talking with a store clerk. I'm clouded with limiting beliefs it's sickening. I know why I almost cried to. It's a personal matter and I won't mention it here.
The indecision to take action lately is draining me.
Other than that I'm productive as hell and carving a new path as hard and cleanly as I can.
"To love completely and hold onto nothing-that is the only freedom." -David Deida
"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
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"If at first glance it may appear too hard, look again. Always look again." - Unknown
If you would like to get in touch with me, please send me an email.
