02-05-2013, 01:48 AM
I don't know why but I'm kind of feeling more and more motivated as time passes by. I am slowly accomplishing more things rather than slacking of and doing leisure activities like video games. There are still days when I feel down, restless and talk shit about myself. But deep inside I believe I can do this. I've been through a lot and I don't want to give up now.
When I feel down I feel the constant anxiety over my age and still not accomplishing much. It takes time to get over this but fuck it I say to myself and instantly get my ass to moving forward and step all that self-pity.
Anyhow, a company is kind of on the verge of hiring me. So that's a good thing and I should be happy. I'm not totally celebrating though because it might be a false alarm and if that happens I might beat myself up again and feel that self-pity crap. Either way, I feel fine.
When I feel down I feel the constant anxiety over my age and still not accomplishing much. It takes time to get over this but fuck it I say to myself and instantly get my ass to moving forward and step all that self-pity.
Anyhow, a company is kind of on the verge of hiring me. So that's a good thing and I should be happy. I'm not totally celebrating though because it might be a false alarm and if that happens I might beat myself up again and feel that self-pity crap. Either way, I feel fine.
"Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."
