Sean's AM Journal

[Sean]

I've actually been experiencing an increase in vivid dreams as well, interesting. I know it's only been about 10 days but do you see any difference between Stage 5 and Stage 4 Sean? How's your confidence level and social skills at this point?

Confidence is way up, I think. It's hard to compare against Stage 4 without looking back, but within just a few days of starting Stage 5, I was having a BLAST at my friends' company party where I knew only three people. At the party, I was salsa dancing with an amazing MILF; making fun of the white-boy dance I used to do at parties; dragging girls onto the dance floor when I could tell they wanted it (as an excuse for their own dance insecurity); got a girl to join me on the dance floor by using a "come here" gesture with my finger; chose not to pursue a beautiful woman based on my intuitive sense of her (seemed like a huge maintenance issue); and felt no discomfort at doing any of these things.

That was all in just one night after one night of using Stage 5. Seems a little early for a real effect. Confidence seems to have been on a strong upward trend for the past several stages. I can't put my finger on anything in particular in Stage 5 that's changing noticeably, which is why I asked about believing that I deserve good things: I'm trying to use my dreams to see where the changes are.

One thing that has been quite interesting since starting Stage 5 is my ex-girlfriend's response to me in person. She's being very nice, and not the insulting, combative shrew she was the year prior. I don't know if Stage 5 has anything to do with that, but it is no less a welcome change.

I'm more relaxed now, that is for sure. I've got a strong desire to get into the gym and lift weighs as often as possible. I've been doing this since January, but the schedule has been fluid due to how busy I've been. I find it very challenging to go to be early, enabling me to wake up early.

I do not remember, Sean. I may be good, but I'm not Super Man.

Thanks anyhow, Shannon.