11-20-2012, 11:15 PM
Sean and Spiral thanks a bundle for your kind words of wisdom. Sorry I'm just now responding but I wanted to make sure you both know that your words did not fall on deaf ears. Indeed, I notice that in my time of despair that I begin thinking of how lonely it is to not be with someone (specifically a female) and it makes me long for some action. But all things come in due time.
This is why these health issues piss me off so much. I feel as if I could be doing other things and yet I'm once again derailed and delayed. I have wondered just how much fear and guilt play a role in my reflux. MHS was at full throttle but the effects have dipped again. I wonder if perhaps I'm punishing myself for past misdeeds which is what is keeping me suffering and preventing me from healing. But to your point though Sean, in the grand scheme of things I am progressing. Compared to how I felt 3 months ago, I have certaintly improved a great deal. So...I keep chugging.
By the way, Overcome Procratination is subtle but I can definitely feel it. Less resistance to getting things done like cleaning the house. There's a "pull" to the program where if you know something needs doing and you try to avoid it the program will "pull" you towards the task until you do it. And if you don't, it'll nag the crap out of you unless you rationalize it.
This is why these health issues piss me off so much. I feel as if I could be doing other things and yet I'm once again derailed and delayed. I have wondered just how much fear and guilt play a role in my reflux. MHS was at full throttle but the effects have dipped again. I wonder if perhaps I'm punishing myself for past misdeeds which is what is keeping me suffering and preventing me from healing. But to your point though Sean, in the grand scheme of things I am progressing. Compared to how I felt 3 months ago, I have certaintly improved a great deal. So...I keep chugging.
By the way, Overcome Procratination is subtle but I can definitely feel it. Less resistance to getting things done like cleaning the house. There's a "pull" to the program where if you know something needs doing and you try to avoid it the program will "pull" you towards the task until you do it. And if you don't, it'll nag the crap out of you unless you rationalize it.
