Path to Greatness - Journal

[Javier Gerardo]

My dream was to become an entrepreneur but a lot of things internally and externally have hindered me from becoming one.

Well, that's another one of our similarities, lol!

All the best to you too.

Thanks! It's really amazing to see someone who is traveling the same path as me.

On a side note I did manage to went out yesterday. Well that's the positive side. On the other hand, I wasn't able to do much when I went out. I went first to a place full of bars and late night restaurants. I thought of sitting down and getting a drink but I had a lot of thoughts running in my head like "What if a friend of mine saw me drinking alone? He or she might think I'm a loser" so I decided to just transfer to another place.
Yeah, I should have gotten myself at least a bottle before I transfered But then again I was held motionless by me thinking of what others think of me. I really need to get passed that if I want to progress. I made excuses that time that the place is full of old folks and yuppies and I might feel out of place. I look really young for my age and nowadays I consider myself as still part of the college crowd lol. But it was no excuse.

Moving on upon arriving on the next place I went to, I notice that all the people are sitting down and no one was in the bar area of the club. So I felt again a familiar feeling that I haven't felt in a long time - my social anxiety. It's probably because I wasn't getting out daily as compared when I have a job. So I immediately left the club because all the attention will be put on me because I'm the only one there alone. Ahhh I want to get over this and be used to attention.

I ended the night by just eating at some fastfood and walking through the city.

Looking back at it I know I should have done way better than that. I know I'm making progress but I have experience a familiar feeling again. If this happened a year ago, I might have beat myself up for it. But now I just look at it positively that I have at least went out. Learn from my mistakes and go on right? As they say you are making progress when you are experiencing plateaus and failures.

For the record I'm on Day 66 of Absolute Self Confidence 5G.