11-03-2012, 06:51 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-03-2012, 06:54 PM by LionMonkey.)
Day 13
Last night I felt not well. I've become less and less motivated or inspired to meet women yet I find myself going out and put myself in situations where there's women involved. Making situations happen without having the feeling with me and damn I get shot down a lot.
Sometimes it's really fun and other times it's ehh, that was boring and then there are times where I'm surprised of their reactions.
I trembled a bit when a guy pushed me and shunned me for not waiting behind him in the queue in the bar for getting my jacket back.
This guy was two heads taller than me and lo and behold, I looked him dead in the eyes and his girl also gave me some killer eyes, which I also looked like I didn't give a fuck.
I felt uneasy though, yet I broaden my space and pushed this guy a bit and he pushed roughly back and said something. You could feel the extreme tension in the room. I think I pussied out by putting my hand on his back and apologizing "I didn't knew you haven't got your jacket yet"
The situation made me feel bad. I disrespected myself. I reminded myself of being grateful and after some great workout and some rituals today I let go of it but next time, it wont turn out like this again.
The very strange thing was that I hooked up with a girl later the same night. Sometimes I wonder why a woman would like to have an intimate time with me... continued
Last night I felt not well. I've become less and less motivated or inspired to meet women yet I find myself going out and put myself in situations where there's women involved. Making situations happen without having the feeling with me and damn I get shot down a lot.
Sometimes it's really fun and other times it's ehh, that was boring and then there are times where I'm surprised of their reactions.
I trembled a bit when a guy pushed me and shunned me for not waiting behind him in the queue in the bar for getting my jacket back.
This guy was two heads taller than me and lo and behold, I looked him dead in the eyes and his girl also gave me some killer eyes, which I also looked like I didn't give a fuck.
I felt uneasy though, yet I broaden my space and pushed this guy a bit and he pushed roughly back and said something. You could feel the extreme tension in the room. I think I pussied out by putting my hand on his back and apologizing "I didn't knew you haven't got your jacket yet"
The situation made me feel bad. I disrespected myself. I reminded myself of being grateful and after some great workout and some rituals today I let go of it but next time, it wont turn out like this again.
The very strange thing was that I hooked up with a girl later the same night. Sometimes I wonder why a woman would like to have an intimate time with me... continued
1. Do whatever you want.. risk whatever your gut tells you because.. you know you have good intentions.
2. Pressure forms the man.
3. Clarity gives space for better decisions.
