10-16-2012, 03:12 PM
It would seem that frustration was only this morning's theme. This afternoon has been a steadily growing thoughfulness about the future. I have a 7 month-old daughter. I spend time with her, and I am fulfilling my role as her father, though I cannot continue a romantic relationship with her mother.
I read an article today, from several years ago, about how two teen girls fought over a jobless, carless thug. One of them stabbed the other, who bled out. Just like the lyrics: one got wasted and the other's a waste. My daughter's mother is not very stable, and I worry about her future.
The other article I read, at The Red Pill Room, is about Happily Ever After: what it means, what it takes, and what you sacrifice when you choose to exclude it from your life. It was in response to an article written by a woman who has been happily married for 47 years. HEA is an important thing for me. I have always wanted a partner to share my life with, and AM is the tool I'm using to put me on the path to finding the right one.
There is a lot of emotion coming up with this, and it's chaotic. Some fear, some worry, some doubt, more fear, more worry, reactions to those, trying to plan around those, momentary flashes of desperation.
Overcoming Fear, or Shannon's future Annihilating Fear Like the Bitch It Is 5G (my title), needs to go on my dance card. Fear has nothing good to offer me.
I read an article today, from several years ago, about how two teen girls fought over a jobless, carless thug. One of them stabbed the other, who bled out. Just like the lyrics: one got wasted and the other's a waste. My daughter's mother is not very stable, and I worry about her future.
The other article I read, at The Red Pill Room, is about Happily Ever After: what it means, what it takes, and what you sacrifice when you choose to exclude it from your life. It was in response to an article written by a woman who has been happily married for 47 years. HEA is an important thing for me. I have always wanted a partner to share my life with, and AM is the tool I'm using to put me on the path to finding the right one.
There is a lot of emotion coming up with this, and it's chaotic. Some fear, some worry, some doubt, more fear, more worry, reactions to those, trying to plan around those, momentary flashes of desperation.
Overcoming Fear, or Shannon's future Annihilating Fear Like the Bitch It Is 5G (my title), needs to go on my dance card. Fear has nothing good to offer me.
Fear is a liar.
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway
