10-13-2012, 10:07 AM
AM 5.0 stage 2 day 5
Stage 2 seems to be giving me hard time.It's bringing negative concepts
and ideas about myself and my life.I had a small breakdown yesterday and I cried.It was like facing a constant barrage of negativity about myself and my life,being weak,incapable,unattractive and pushing myself and working hard on things and not seeing results.
I worked out hard today until a lot of it went away.
There also unwillingness to be mistreated and walked on by others.
I just refuse to and don't care if there's a little fiction with others
because of it.
I remember some primal themes showing up in tonights dreams
and me in them trying to resist some events in them.
Also p***ed with women and their choices and me being treated poorly
by some.
Stage 2 seems to be giving me hard time.It's bringing negative concepts
and ideas about myself and my life.I had a small breakdown yesterday and I cried.It was like facing a constant barrage of negativity about myself and my life,being weak,incapable,unattractive and pushing myself and working hard on things and not seeing results.
I worked out hard today until a lot of it went away.
There also unwillingness to be mistreated and walked on by others.
I just refuse to and don't care if there's a little fiction with others
because of it.
I remember some primal themes showing up in tonights dreams
and me in them trying to resist some events in them.
Also p***ed with women and their choices and me being treated poorly
by some.
