Had a dream this morning that I was being chased to be locked up. A lady found me and then on the way back to the prison she asked me if I wanted to do it one time before she locked me up. We then went to the bathroom lol. There was a certain warmth and comfort with the interaction, I think I remember us holding hands on the way to the bathroom. The rest of the dream was rife with symbolism and stuff as I kept escaping and running away from the prison only to be found again or find dead ends.
Day 3 of meditation challenge:
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 1.5/5 | Clarity: 1.5/5 | Effort/Ease: 3/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2.5/5 (1=very dull, 5=none) (btw I think dullness might be a different type of metric than I thought. I'm using it to measure how boring the session was, but I think dullness might be a technical term for something I'm not quite sure, like dullness of awareness or something.)
Terrible session. Mind kept wandering and no ability to focus. I wonder if it's my lack of sleep, or just the fact that my mind is groggy from just waking up. Only got 7 hours. I haven't been getting 8-9 hours the past while. I feel like this was a win for consistency, not for quality of practice.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Heart-warmth: 2.5/5 | Ease: 3/5 | Sincerity: 3/5
This was a lot easier. My mind also seemed to be more awake by this point. Felt some warmth and enjoyed the session.
Day 3 of meditation challenge:
~Focus Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 1.5/5 | Clarity: 1.5/5 | Effort/Ease: 3/5 (1=straining, 5=effortless) | Dullness: 2.5/5 (1=very dull, 5=none) (btw I think dullness might be a different type of metric than I thought. I'm using it to measure how boring the session was, but I think dullness might be a technical term for something I'm not quite sure, like dullness of awareness or something.)
Terrible session. Mind kept wandering and no ability to focus. I wonder if it's my lack of sleep, or just the fact that my mind is groggy from just waking up. Only got 7 hours. I haven't been getting 8-9 hours the past while. I feel like this was a win for consistency, not for quality of practice.
~Metta Meditation~
Time: 10 minutes
Stability: 2/5 | Heart-warmth: 2.5/5 | Ease: 3/5 | Sincerity: 3/5
This was a lot easier. My mind also seemed to be more awake by this point. Felt some warmth and enjoyed the session.
