09-20-2012, 10:06 AM
The surface cause of the aggression is irritation with my director, and him being a twit. He's capricious, arbitrary, and antagonistic. He is a managerial bully, and my conversation with him last week bothered me greatly. I'm glad it was a phone call, because the look on my face would have gotten me fired.
This irritation was taking the form of aggression. I wanted to hit something inanimate. I'm doing much better today, having it fade into irritation again.
Looking deeper, I feel the aggression was also fueled by my expectation that The Boss would instigate another confrontation about his expectations when I've already agreed to abide by what he said on Monday. This is the kind of thing he does frequently to keep employees under his thumb. I was prepared for it, and it never materialized. I got all geared up for nothing.
This irritation was taking the form of aggression. I wanted to hit something inanimate. I'm doing much better today, having it fade into irritation again.
Looking deeper, I feel the aggression was also fueled by my expectation that The Boss would instigate another confrontation about his expectations when I've already agreed to abide by what he said on Monday. This is the kind of thing he does frequently to keep employees under his thumb. I was prepared for it, and it never materialized. I got all geared up for nothing.
Fear is a liar.
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway
There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man; true nobility is being superior to your former self. -- Ernest Hemingway
