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[EvolvingPhoenix]

Okay, that checks out.



Any advice on how to clear it?



So far, my only idea is to stay away from anything that would trigger it, like videos about... obviously divisive subject matters.

Here's how I would deal with it.

First I would find a location where I was free to express my anger without anyone else around me.  In my case, there are some remote beaches I could go to, or some areas of remote woods.  Then I would go there and start basically meditating on a question of what am I angry about?  And listen for the response.  It may take time to come to your conscious mind, and you may need to adjust your state to a deeper level of relaxation that everyday awareness.  It may come as a feeling or as a small quiet voice or something else.

Once it comes, and you have your answer, start asking "Why?" 

Each time you get an answer, take note of it, and again ask "Why?"  Keep going until you arrive at the root of the issue.

Once you understand the root of the issue, you can start making adjustments that will allow you to deal with the real cause of the anger.

You may also want to vent, scream, etc. to express that anger in a safe way that doesn't hurt you or anyone else.  But the part(s) of you that feel angry will benefit from being acknowledged and validated, understood and given a chance to speak and express their feelings.

Thanks. That sounds like good advice. I suck at meditation but I'll try it. I live on my own so I'll just use my apartment. 

As for expressing my anger, I intend to use some heavy metal tracks I've bought since I have in recent times discovered I inexplicably have gained the ability to sing. But I've got to get my voice back in shape for it and I've got to come up with a routine to practice which has me nervous because my neighbours love to make noise complaints. 


But metal vocals should be perfect for that idea. I'm actually intending to use it with Vtubing and YT content creation, as a sort of mixed media creative venture, but I want the music to be central. So that should work for that.

Thanks again.