OGSF3

[Frosted]

I’m noticing pretty significant strides especially recently. I was going through some rough patches, but now I’m seeing some good stuff come out of that. It’s so natural too. It’s easy not to notice. My brain tries to be like “you were always like this”. Bitch no I wasn’t lol. Excited to see how this progresses.

[Have at ye]

I’m noticing pretty significant strides especially recently. I was going through some rough patches, but now I’m seeing some good stuff come out of that. It’s so natural too. It’s easy not to notice. My brain tries to be like “you were always like this”. Bitch no I wasn’t lol. Excited to see how this progresses.

I think it's the famous Naturalizer on steroids. I'm getting similar ideas/feelings while running OSC.

[Shannon]

The Naturalizer is certainly part of it. There are several layers of approach and technique that I developed over the years trying to achieve this, but they are only really showing themselves now that they have the 6hth Gen of technology behind them.

[Frosted]

Had some intense transformative dreams last night. I only remember one of them. One family member was trying to get their way by guilting me that they were going to die soon. Another family member was supporting them and they were both pressuring me to cave. I was doing some kind of origami to make a box (idk why lol), and the more they pressured, the more I relaxed into the guilt and fear, refusing to cave. I chose to finish the box and not react to them, neither refusing or accepting. It felt like I began to let go of control of my body and I and the box became one motion that was moving toward a more perfect “destiny”, like it was the one right way and by letting go of control, I allowed this right way to do its thing.

I’ve woken up today feeling great. OGSF3 is working through things fast. There are rough patches, but promising signs as well. We shall see how things progress. I’m optimistic.

[ncbeareatingman]

Had some intense transformative dreams last night. I only remember one of them. One family member was trying to get their way by guilting me that they were going to die soon. Another family member was supporting them and they were both pressuring me to cave. I was doing some kind of origami to make a box (idk why lol), and the more they pressured, the more I relaxed into the guilt and fear, refusing to cave. I chose to finish the box and not react to them, neither refusing or accepting. It felt like I began to let go of control of my body and I and the box became one motion that was moving toward a more perfect “destiny”, like it was the one right way and by letting go of control, I allowed this right way to do its thing.

I’ve woken up today feeling great. OGSF3 is working through things fast. There are rough patches, but promising signs as well. We shall see how things progress. I’m optimistic.

 Dag Gone Man!! That is friggin' amazing. wow, Dream on and have your 'realer' dreams come true! more power to ya Frosted. 
May Oden smile upon yee mate! 

[Benjamin]

Interesting, I always find it funny the random things that appear in my dreams. Of course it's usually symbolic, I usually find that whatever I wake up thinking about is what it was working on, like past memories and such.

Or alternatively...

You accidentally listened to OGSFAMO.

Overcoming Guilt, Shame, Fear and Mastering Oragami.

[Shannon]

Whoops. Did I do that? lol

[Frosted]

@ncbeareatingman Thanks Keith :-)

@Benjamin I do feel like OGSF3 leveled up my origami by at least 3 levels. Soon I will be a master and nobody will stop me from building the ultimate box.

@Shannon It’s crazy how much you can change overnight. If things are going as well as I think they are, then OGSF3 is shaping up to be a legitimate masterpiece.



Today was in a group setting and significantly more comfortable than last time (and the time before that I was more comfortable than before). Everything felt smoother and I enjoyed myself more. I had insecurities try to come up, but they felt more like distant paper cuts that were easily brushed off. They also didn’t create openings for my insecurities to gain ground like they usually do. Once in a while I would have a slight flare up of anxiety or shame when expressing myself, and then it would pass quickly and everything felt fine. In the past there would be more “grime” or “build up” of emotional residue over time, but it was minimal this time. I was able to overcome these emotional humps faster and more effectively than before.

I felt slippery like the insecurities couldn’t catch me lol. I was goofing around the whole time, and I had a lot of fun.

[Shannon]

Excellent!

[Frosted]

Felt like shit today. Everything just seemed to make me feel like people secretly disliked me, even though it was irrational most of the time. Despite my low mood I kept it together alright, likely a product of the inner work I’ve done with these subs + OGSF3. It feels like even when I feel like shit, I still have some sort of equilibrium, like some part of me is untouched.

I feel a lot of shame bubbling up, and those flare ups cause my brain to go “why do I feel like this?” and then my brain will remember something or interpret an observation in such a way that creates more shame. So the shame colors the lens I use to look at the world which causes the lens to tint more.

Today it’s been more prominent than normal, but the shame has been there underneath the surface lately. I guess it’s something I’m working on and the waves were more turbulent today.

[Frosted]

Today was a rollercoaster. Had a lot of shame come up, and generally felt like shit. Had some feelings of doom for some indiscernible reason. But then I stabilized and enjoyed myself with friends.

[Frosted]

Woke up feeling amazing for no reason. It’s interesting, the pattern of stormy emotions to clear sky’s. Instead of a feeling of vague doom, I feel like things are working out. Things seem to be happening somewhat more intensely than OGSF2, while still keeping my emotional equilibrium.