09-16-2012, 09:09 AM
Day 40 MHS. I'm realizing that the majority of the problems I'm experiencing are fear induced which is to say, psychosomatic. MHS has kept me hopeful and somewhat positive and these last few days have been great and i actually enjoyed a beer and some good food without pain. My cuts are still healing pretty quickly, I'd say after day 1 or 2 they heal almost completely. Not so sure on how MHS deals with muscle recovery since technically that is a form of "healing".
Another phenomenon that I noticed is that ASC's effects are once again shining through but I'm not sure if this is due to TUW-P5j (PGK) or MHS's mood boosting properties. I say this because yesterday I saw a girl I used to talk to about 2 years ago while at a football game and even though it was packed got up, and tried to find her just to say hey too bad the crowd was so thick I couldn't find her
. But I'm still proud of myself for trying. Should mention that I did play TUW-P5j (PGK) while at the stadium (device: ipod touch, range: 12 feet, time of exposure: 20-40 minutes).
More TUW testing to come this week. I want to give GFK a test this week but I'm honestly so happy with results just from TUW-P5j (PGK) and TUW-P17g2-SB (WK) that my motivation to test the others is low. I did test WK for about 5 minutes at a restaruant (I turned it off however, because I remembered I was with family and didn't want to violate the instructions or want them affected) but even with that short exposure the waitress (female, definitely 18 or 19) started acting strange for the rest of the night. My cousin noted that everytime she came around she would give me lust eyes and when she came to tell me about the progres on my food she got waaaaay up in my grill. My folks actually thought she was going to kiss me.
The above situation only makes me more anxious to jump into WM especially after reading Ryan's and Rainbow's journals. To have that mindframe of zero expectations and fearlessness (which would go great with my programming from ASC) I feel as if I could *properly* test the TUWs better. Plus, I have to decide whether or not give AM a refresher (40 days on stage 3) or just do the whole damn thing over which I really REALLY don't want to do.
Another phenomenon that I noticed is that ASC's effects are once again shining through but I'm not sure if this is due to TUW-P5j (PGK) or MHS's mood boosting properties. I say this because yesterday I saw a girl I used to talk to about 2 years ago while at a football game and even though it was packed got up, and tried to find her just to say hey too bad the crowd was so thick I couldn't find her
. But I'm still proud of myself for trying. Should mention that I did play TUW-P5j (PGK) while at the stadium (device: ipod touch, range: 12 feet, time of exposure: 20-40 minutes).More TUW testing to come this week. I want to give GFK a test this week but I'm honestly so happy with results just from TUW-P5j (PGK) and TUW-P17g2-SB (WK) that my motivation to test the others is low. I did test WK for about 5 minutes at a restaruant (I turned it off however, because I remembered I was with family and didn't want to violate the instructions or want them affected) but even with that short exposure the waitress (female, definitely 18 or 19) started acting strange for the rest of the night. My cousin noted that everytime she came around she would give me lust eyes and when she came to tell me about the progres on my food she got waaaaay up in my grill. My folks actually thought she was going to kiss me.
The above situation only makes me more anxious to jump into WM especially after reading Ryan's and Rainbow's journals. To have that mindframe of zero expectations and fearlessness (which would go great with my programming from ASC) I feel as if I could *properly* test the TUWs better. Plus, I have to decide whether or not give AM a refresher (40 days on stage 3) or just do the whole damn thing over which I really REALLY don't want to do.
