07-14-2023, 05:15 PM
Once again I stand here to reveal how much I progressed and first of all I switch to ultrasonic since hybrid seems to be wearing me off. It is very nice and smooth, don't feel like i'm dying recently so next is the fact my worse fears are being worked on and finally giving amazing results.
My OCD is greatly reduced and now i can accept failures more easily. It was pretty hard at first but I can be more relaxed now since my self destructive thoughts were also enhanced by OCD. Most of them are gone and is amazing.
I don't know if there was some kind of fear, shame or guilt behind it or even lack of self esteem, love, confidence or whatever but before I was always complaning about how shitty life was, then one day it finally got straight to me that I can choose my actions and give a damn about negative stuff. I mean is not the first time I heard about it but looks like some part of me didn't understand that until it was represented by something other than rational thoughts and mere words. So happiness comes from inside that's the conclusion.
Today i found a video about psychogenic death and I was very surprised to hear about something like that. Maybe i could have died as well in the past because my symptoms were that bad and my anxiety worse. This one is very interesting, looks like I developed a fear that prevents me from thinking I'm about to die or i can die at any minute. Some days before that was also being worked on but looks like this was the final touch.
I'm glad I don't have to wait until 6G to put an end to this problems of mine.
My OCD is greatly reduced and now i can accept failures more easily. It was pretty hard at first but I can be more relaxed now since my self destructive thoughts were also enhanced by OCD. Most of them are gone and is amazing.
I don't know if there was some kind of fear, shame or guilt behind it or even lack of self esteem, love, confidence or whatever but before I was always complaning about how shitty life was, then one day it finally got straight to me that I can choose my actions and give a damn about negative stuff. I mean is not the first time I heard about it but looks like some part of me didn't understand that until it was represented by something other than rational thoughts and mere words. So happiness comes from inside that's the conclusion.
Today i found a video about psychogenic death and I was very surprised to hear about something like that. Maybe i could have died as well in the past because my symptoms were that bad and my anxiety worse. This one is very interesting, looks like I developed a fear that prevents me from thinking I'm about to die or i can die at any minute. Some days before that was also being worked on but looks like this was the final touch.
I'm glad I don't have to wait until 6G to put an end to this problems of mine.
