OGSF 5.9G - Frosted

[Frosted]

I’ve been dealing with the deepest issues lately. I’ve been facing the ultimate despair that is: I cannot escape death. Doesn’t matter if we discover eternal youth and against all odds I never have an accident. The universe will end someday regardless. I’m afraid to die. The only peace I’ve had so far has been that I was dead before I was born, and there’s nothing I can do to change that I will die and it’s not death that is painful, but the fear of death. There have been brief flashes of peace at this realization, but I’m still dealing with the fear of death.

There are also really old traumas I’m dealing with. I’m talking childhood. I don’t know how early for sure, just that it’s before 13.

I have escaped death itself and I was not afraid even when I was close to it.  I have been able to let go of attachments.  Minimalism helped greatly maybe you should look into it (so did Buddhism).  There are many tools at your disposal if death is something you're afraid of.  I'm not really worried about losing any material things it's nothing I will take with me anyway and family is the only thing i'll miss but they have their own journey and so do I.  I hope you overcome your fears.

I used to put off my fear of death with different mental coping mechanisms (religion, pleasure, distractions, delusional optimism, etc.). I assume most people are like this, so when I hear people say they aren’t afraid of death I hear “I have learned to put off my fear of death” or “I am afraid of death, but it is expressed in my fear of clowns or spiders (or whatever)”. When you get to the core of it all, fear is the fear of death. Anyone who feels fear is afraid of death. I’ll give you the benefit of the doubt though since I can’t know how someone else’s brain works. I can only make conclusions off my own brain and my observations of other people from that viewpoint.

Also, I’m not afraid of losing my stuff when I die. I’m afraid, among other things, of losing all life has to offer. I’m getting to the good parts of life (thanks to subliminals) and I think about all the awesome stuff I’ll never get to experience when I’m dead. It was easier for me to be less scared of dying when my life sucked, but now that things are going to get awesome I don’t want to lose all of that. Also, when I’m dead I won’t be anymore.

I am showing positive progress though. We shall see how things go.