2nd day of 2nd cycle. Things are going pretty well with bearing the program. I have no trouble with anxiety/stress, yesterday I didn't even listen the ASR and I was fine. Anxiety/stress in daily life is lower and I am taking/doing nothing to lower it anyway. The only thing I still do for anxiety is taking the ghee because it prevents anxiety related headaches which are tough.
Something happened yesterday. I am not sure if it's a result from the program but my experience from emotional healing is that a change does not happen or at least does not happen that easily by doing nothing or with minimal effort.
My work is very stressful, it is very toxic and the industry is very manipulative and full of "legal" scams (that's what I call them). In the past I had several experiences in which I said enough is enough. But at the end, as I knew I have nothing else to work with for my financial survival I was holding tight to this work.
Yesterday one of these experiences happened and I was so furious. I had enough. I decided I quit and I took action towards this decision. It is not that I just took the decision but that I took action towards it, knowing the possible consequences.
The different mindset this time is that I don't care about the consequences, I don't care if its going to affect my life financially. I felt empowered on this instance and I still am and I am not even considering changing my decision. As time passes I am more and more confident about my decision. I found peace and I like this peace, freedom and detachment. I know it might be difficult to figure out something else, acquire news skills, get a new job. However I am not in that old "prison" any more.
I have some doubts about this program being the reason of this whole situation, this empowerment. Maybe somehow it indeed help to overcome these fears. If it is the program, with such little use, I am awed.
If it is the program, handling such a huge fear, a huge chapter in my life, with no drama and side effects... that is amazing.
Quick edit...
Now that I think about it again...
How is my stress/anxiety levels low... when I am in a situation where financially I am in trouble? Things are going really well! And as for ASR, last time I used it was 6-7 days ago.
Two weeks ago I was going to be so much troubled in such a situation...
Something happened yesterday. I am not sure if it's a result from the program but my experience from emotional healing is that a change does not happen or at least does not happen that easily by doing nothing or with minimal effort.
My work is very stressful, it is very toxic and the industry is very manipulative and full of "legal" scams (that's what I call them). In the past I had several experiences in which I said enough is enough. But at the end, as I knew I have nothing else to work with for my financial survival I was holding tight to this work.
Yesterday one of these experiences happened and I was so furious. I had enough. I decided I quit and I took action towards this decision. It is not that I just took the decision but that I took action towards it, knowing the possible consequences.
The different mindset this time is that I don't care about the consequences, I don't care if its going to affect my life financially. I felt empowered on this instance and I still am and I am not even considering changing my decision. As time passes I am more and more confident about my decision. I found peace and I like this peace, freedom and detachment. I know it might be difficult to figure out something else, acquire news skills, get a new job. However I am not in that old "prison" any more.
I have some doubts about this program being the reason of this whole situation, this empowerment. Maybe somehow it indeed help to overcome these fears. If it is the program, with such little use, I am awed.
If it is the program, handling such a huge fear, a huge chapter in my life, with no drama and side effects... that is amazing.
Quick edit...
Now that I think about it again...
How is my stress/anxiety levels low... when I am in a situation where financially I am in trouble? Things are going really well! And as for ASR, last time I used it was 6-7 days ago.
Two weeks ago I was going to be so much troubled in such a situation...
