So far OGSF reminds me of AM6. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s the emotional rawness I’m experiencing or something. So far OGSF feels smooth and it seems to be better at pushing me to push harder when overcoming my issues. I’m learning just how big of a problem shame is for me. It and fear are holding me back from a lot of things. For example, MLS probably wouldn’t do much for me because I’m afraid and ashamed of failure because I’ve been made to believe that frustration or failure is a sign of my own inadequacy and that I will be humiliated and ostracized for it. This isn’t just a problem with learning, but trying anything new and unfamiliar.
No wonder I don’t want to do anything productive. Until I solve these deeply rooted issues, nothing will change with my situation.
I’m trying to wait a bit before I start using ASR with OGSF so that I can get a feel for OGSF by itself first.
P.S I’ve been off porn very consistently with only a few relapses here and there for several months. In that time I’ve still masturbated but nowhere as frequently as I used to. I used to do it multiple times a day, now it’s a few times a week. I’m aiming to lower that amount even more and maybe even stop altogether if possible. OGSF seems to be helping with the urge to masturbate that comes from the urge to escape emotional pain. Hopefully this keeps up.
Edit: I’m listening to ultrasonic and I’m following the directions exactly so far.
No wonder I don’t want to do anything productive. Until I solve these deeply rooted issues, nothing will change with my situation.
I’m trying to wait a bit before I start using ASR with OGSF so that I can get a feel for OGSF by itself first.
P.S I’ve been off porn very consistently with only a few relapses here and there for several months. In that time I’ve still masturbated but nowhere as frequently as I used to. I used to do it multiple times a day, now it’s a few times a week. I’m aiming to lower that amount even more and maybe even stop altogether if possible. OGSF seems to be helping with the urge to masturbate that comes from the urge to escape emotional pain. Hopefully this keeps up.
Edit: I’m listening to ultrasonic and I’m following the directions exactly so far.
