AM6 Journal

[GreekGod22]

AM6 final review.

I've ran the whole 6 stages of AM6, between July 2022 and December 2022. It has been a difficult experience; those 6 months haven't been the happiest. 

• My finances have improved a lot, I got a great job offer, started in December, and I'm working as a freelancer/ contractor. I have a lot of flexibility, it's fully remote, which is exactly what I desired.
  
• I bought my first car (my mother helped a lot with the money, tbh), learned to overcome my fear of driving, took driving lessons, became a better driver and I'm now more relaxed while driving, and confident in my skills. This has been positively influenced by AM6, for sure.
  
• My relationship with my girlfriend has suffered, I didn't make her as happy as she wished, there were several breakups attempts from her, and my mild depression hasn't helped either. Currently she broke up with me, and it's serious. Maybe we will be back together. Either way, I have grown a lot from this relationship, it has better shaped me into a man.
  
• My problem of using porn/ masturbation as a means of emotional escapism. This has not changed/ improved on AM6
  
• My chronic anhedonia/ low enthusiasm has not changed. Good things have happened in my life, but I'm still unable to be happy, only for a short while.
  
• more willing to face my fears and sit with them. I've had a lot of dreams with my father who passed away.
  
• better decision making, maturity improvement
  
• relationship with my sister has improved.
  

Currently, taking X4A-1000 for a month spin, then I might use Aura of Love for a month, after which I will settle for a long-term sub, one of: UH, E5, OF5.X4A-