05-02-2022, 02:24 PM
April was okay. Was pretty much neutral overall. I don't get super happy but I don't get super low either. I felt more social and talkative with people. No physical aches or pains. I don't wake up tired anymore even after 8-9 hours of sleep.
Internally still lost and confused. My whole life I just followed what others told me and lived in fear. Now I am thinking of what I want. But the true question really is, "what is it that I want?". I have no clue what I really want in my life. I always thought external things would fulfil me but they never did. Now I just think it is all hopeless unless I become truly whole in the inside first. Working on that now.
Internally still lost and confused. My whole life I just followed what others told me and lived in fear. Now I am thinking of what I want. But the true question really is, "what is it that I want?". I have no clue what I really want in my life. I always thought external things would fulfil me but they never did. Now I just think it is all hopeless unless I become truly whole in the inside first. Working on that now.
