whome: OF3

[whome]

Do you believe that OF v3 is helping your particular situation so far?

I don’t believe that I’ve sensed OF helping yet. I’m hopeful that it might help, but I’m not planning on sitting here, doing only thing at a time, and waiting for that one thing to work or not work before moving onto the next thing. Things are so broken in me that I don’t have the years on the planet left for such an approach.

That's why during scientific experiments, you don't change multiple variables at a time.  We may not be doing formal science here but it's best to know what each variable does by itself.

It seems clear to me that we have two different priorities here, then.

This is not science for me. For me, knowing what did what with any rigor is of zero priority. My priority is to heal or move or treat the pain and grief and terror that corrodes me from the inside. For me, that means using the lavender pills and the sub and maybe EMDR and maybe the past life regression hypnosis that you talked about and whatever. Everything, anything, to get the grief and pain to stop. Because right now it’s immobile and feels permanent, so bashing it from every angle seems like the best approach. This has already destroyed decades of my life, and if I don’t get this solved, it will destroy all the remaining decades of my life.

Please believe me when I say that I wish I could give you data that has rigor. But I cannot afford to. Also, this isn’t DMSI. Part of the agreement of DMSI, payment for the ongoing updates for no charge, was to provide solid data so that you could use it to learn how the effects changed. For DMSI I complied. But there are no such stated restrictions on OFv3 and right now the priority for me of getting the pain in me to stop overrides a request for rigor that I did not agree to.

If you want me to stop posting here, I will. If you are ok with me continuing to post, I will, and I will continue to provide as much data as I can to keep things in context. Nevertheless, I’m going to be listening to OFv3 as part of how I treat the pain in order to make it stop. That is my number one priority. It’s the only thing that matters. I’m sorry that I can’t help you with your science.