whome: OF3

[Shannon]

Day 14

It’s two weeks. I have a choice tomorrow.

I can start with the escalation that Shannon wrote: First eliminate an off-day, then start adding loops to the on-days up to 3 total, then start adding on days.

Or.

Do you feel like there is any change at all so far?

I intellectually know that Shannon did not intend it like this, but my emotions read that reply as an indication of how broken I am, that the OF3 run isn’t having any effect on it.

And after reading that there’s been a part of me that wants to try the hybrid. No, it’s not the autoconfig thing, as this isn’t a craving or intuition. It’s the part of me that’s looking at my brokenness, seeing that the ultrasonic isn’t working, and feeling desperate to feel some kind of hope here.

I haven’t decided anything yet, and I’m probably going to wake up tomorrow and just keep on the official path, but there’s a part of me that wants to feel some effect, even if it is an over-powerful subliminal crushing me.

It's not time for the hybrid.  We don't know if that will even be functional yet.  It could be the subliminal equivalent of listening to white noise for all we know at this point.

Follow the prescribed escalation.

The key is to find the precise level of exposure you need to make progress.  Not too little, and not too much.  That's what I am looking for in the question I asked.  Have we made any progress, and if so, how much?

Remember, overload is just as useless as underload.