06-05-2021, 08:30 AM
Day 14
It’s two weeks. I have a choice tomorrow.
I can start with the escalation that Shannon wrote: First eliminate an off-day, then start adding loops to the on-days up to 3 total, then start adding on days.
Or.
I intellectually know that Shannon did not intend it like this, but my emotions read that reply as an indication of how broken I am, that the OF3 run isn’t having any effect on it.
And after reading that there’s been a part of me that wants to try the hybrid. No, it’s not the autoconfig thing, as this isn’t a craving or intuition. It’s the part of me that’s looking at my brokenness, seeing that the ultrasonic isn’t working, and feeling desperate to feel some kind of hope here.
I haven’t decided anything yet, and I’m probably going to wake up tomorrow and just keep on the official path, but there’s a part of me that wants to feel some effect, even if it is an over-powerful subliminal crushing me.
It’s two weeks. I have a choice tomorrow.
I can start with the escalation that Shannon wrote: First eliminate an off-day, then start adding loops to the on-days up to 3 total, then start adding on days.
Or.
(06-04-2021, 11:51 AM)Shannon Wrote: Do you feel like there is any change at all so far?
I intellectually know that Shannon did not intend it like this, but my emotions read that reply as an indication of how broken I am, that the OF3 run isn’t having any effect on it.
And after reading that there’s been a part of me that wants to try the hybrid. No, it’s not the autoconfig thing, as this isn’t a craving or intuition. It’s the part of me that’s looking at my brokenness, seeing that the ultrasonic isn’t working, and feeling desperate to feel some kind of hope here.
I haven’t decided anything yet, and I’m probably going to wake up tomorrow and just keep on the official path, but there’s a part of me that wants to feel some effect, even if it is an over-powerful subliminal crushing me.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
