10-25-2020, 02:28 AM
(07-02-2020, 11:14 AM)Shannon Wrote: I am noticing that I don't remember any dreams lately. I don't remember if this was happening before OF, but it's definitely not happening since. Interesting.
I am also noticing that I generally have more confidence lately, and I am more freely and more frequently expressing my "very ridiculous" sense of humor. It's fun! Not everyone gets it, but it's fun. This morning we went to have breakfast at a restaurant. The walk from the host stand to the table was 3 steps. "That was entirely too far of a walk, sir!" I said to the man. He didn't get it. GF made fun of me for being stupid. I had fun laughing at my own silliness, even if nobody else did.
I am also noticing something very unexpected, which pleases the hell out of me. Since LTU5 came out, my GF has been using it to keep herself emotionally comfortable. If she went three or more days without it, she would become depressed, hopeless, negative, irrational, angry, lash out, etc.
Now the reason for that was because while it was working for her, her inner child was very stubborn, and would not make the changes necessary to allow the effects it was having when she listened to it to become permanent. It couldn't override the cooperative parts except to prevent itself from changing. That inner child had a negative identity because all it knew was that it was always guilty of everything, so it must be that it deserved to suffer. (Her parents did a doozy on her, let me tell you. Emotional child abuse would be a couple step up from what they did.)
So her inner child was always trying to execute on that "I must be terrible for them to treat me that way, so I deserve to suffer, be miserable and fail all the time." LTU5 caused the rest of her to override that and she would be happy and productive and emotionally stable. All the therapy, counseling and pills they threw at her did nothing to help, ironically because her parents would punish her more for seeking help, because that threatened to expose them as abusers. Unfortunately, LTU5 could not override that core belief that she was deserving of suffering and punishment, because she interpreted their abuse when she was an infant and very young child as, "They wouldn't be treating me this way if I didn't deserve it, so I must be terrible and deserve to suffer and fail."
We could never go more than 2-3 days without running it, which made for using anything else very challenging, to say the least...
We have only used OF 5.75G since it came out, and I think that was 15 days ago now? And only once has she gotten moody and cranky... but even then she didn't get ridiculous like she used to. And that only happened once, and she recognized she was doing it and responded rationally. That never happened before.
That means OF 5.75G is not only more powerful than LTU5, but it's accomplishing what LTU5 could not... which apparently was based in a fear. I would bet that it was based in the fear of being unlovable, or unworthy of love.
THIS IS INCREDIBLE PROGRESS FOR HER!!!
I have made a lot of progress with her over the years we have been dating, but this is just next level. When we started dating, she would sometimes go through periods of depression so deep that she wouldn't get out of bed. Just lay there in the dark wanting to die, sometimes for days on end. Nothing I did helped.
Then my programs began helping because they became powerful enough. EHPRA v2 and 3.
Then I created LTU5 for her, and that basically acted like an anti-depressant pill for her; it worked, but we needed to keep using it all the time.
Now OF 5.75G is replacing it, and doing what it couldn't. That means that her deepest issue was fear, and that fear is being removed. I cannot tell you how thrilled I am with this, or how impressed I am by it.
That is perfect congratulations. Can i ask you what she is going to listen in future or if she sticks now to OF. I can relate and had those traumatic events from very young age. So it would be helpful what my subliminal order should be after OF. Thanks for the insights
