08-12-2020, 12:23 PM
(This post was last modified: 08-12-2020, 12:25 PM by ncbeareatingman.)
(08-12-2020, 04:49 AM)Shannon Wrote: Last night I had a dream that I remembered as I woke up. I was talking to a part of me, and kept switching from first person to third person point of view, alternately being and holding the hand of this part of myself. He was laying on a gurney, being prepped for what looked like surgery, and was afraid that he would die on the operating table. I don't remember if it was "me" holding his hand or the doctor who told him this, but someone stated that even if he died on the operating table, they could bring him back with a shock to the heart.
Now mind you, the fear from this part of me was very, very mild compared to what you would expect from someone fearing the possibility of imminent death. It wasn't fright, or terror, it was mild to moderate concern and a little worry. And the "me" holding his hand wasn't worried at all.
Then he started worrying about the effects of being brought back to life by electric shock to the heart; he was concerned that he would awaken with all his muscles sore from the extreme contraction. This actually seemed to bother him slightly more than the thought of dying. I was trying to relax him when I stopped dreaming.
The significance of this dream is huge. It means that some part of my subconscious that so far has not given up the fear it holds was preparing to "have it removed". In the past, this sort of thing would have been actively evaded, fought, resisted and sabotaged by such part of the user. But in this dream, this part of me was laying on this gurney without restraints, and it wasn't a question of if the "surgery" was going to happen, but when. And that part of me had already accepted that as inevitable truth.
What amazes me is that while waiting for the "surgery", which was to happen while he was under general anesthesia, he was still finding things to worry about and fear, even though he was very calm.
This is huge. This means FRM is not only incredibly effective, given enough time and proper usage, but that it's very close to the finish line for development, as I had hoped. This makes me very happy all around.
I have concluded that because I am exhausted and because I am going to be on vacation, I'm going to continue using OF 5.75G at least until I get back from vacation, and then I will consider whether or not to switch to LTU6 and if so, when.
I am really impressed by OF 5.75G, and really pleased with it!
Man this thing is really rockin it.... Im so glad... I swear... you know its bad ass when the creator of the ding dang thang, is deeply impressed with it and it pleased with it.... its alive,its alive!!! ( Dr.Frankenstien! Ha!) its also help you get clearer as you heal and clear,around you're creations.....building upon itself....
.......as you get better,the better your approach to creating subs,your insights,intuition and therefore technology. wouldn't surprise me one bit, if you started dreaming even more solutions,options and alternatives to sub technology
.. ..hell you already dream your ass of any who.... so it wouldnt surprise a bit if Telsa or similar came and worked with you, in the altered states, im shure some similar's, have been fer years any way.....
....as your inner world gets that much more,better so does your outter world and reality including subs of course. bless you and more dream power to ya's mister!! Im feeling way better you can tell,right?
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"