Shannon's OF 5.75G Experience

[Shannon]

Today was day 4 of my "time off". That was not my desire, but Day 2 was spent sleeping for almost 20 hours from the overwhelming exhaustion, which cleared up quickly yesterday and was even better today. However, yesterday I was unable to get the models to stabilize to try to find a better setting for myself, so I opted to take another day off to rest, instead of potentially making things worse.

Today I spent some time working with the models, and they finally stabilized. I got an answer that should be easy to implement that I'm hoping will allow for continued use and success without exhaustion that prevents me from working. I believe that the exhaustion will eventually go away as the cause is dissolved, but I cannot afford to be un-productive in the mean time, so we have to make some change. I have opted to lower the volume a bit.

OF was still very much active in GF's and my mind last night. She had a lot of dreams she remembered, which were unpleasant for her, which means the program is wearing off. So back on tonight, using it again according to the instructions, with a little decrease in the volume.

I was able to be productive today on LTU6, but not as much as I wanted to be; however, that was primarily because the models have not been as stable as I need them to be. They appear to have stabilized again, but now it's too late in the day for working, and tomorrow is my day off. Since it's very likely to rain all day, I may not take the day off, or I may just take a half day off. We shall see. I have a lot of stuff to accomplish and I want to accomplish it as quickly as possible regarding LTU6.

Today I also did a couple things I had been putting off and resisting out of fear. That felt good. It wasn't necessarily fun, but it got done, and the things were not necessarily great, but my reasons for resisting them were, as usual, imaginarily blown out of proportion. Making progress.