Shannon's OF 5.75G Experience

[K-Train]

Today I started actually working on what's been waiting for 10+ years for me to do.  It's not so much making me nervous anymore as, I really don't know what I'm doing with this just yet.  I feel frustrated because circumstances are making this unusually difficult to do, and I ended up throwing out my whole day's work because I realized it wasn't what was needed.  But I'm doing it, no more hiding behind excuses or ignoring it.

Caught myself a couple of times today doing things in public that I normally wouldn't do.  For example, while waiting for a host at the restaurant I went to for dinner, I was "dancing" with my girlfriend (if you can call it that).  Didn't care who saw me.  That's definitely not my normal.

The experience was very "still" for me emotionally today, fear-wise.  I don't know how else to describe it; like the surface of a lake that is perfectly smooth and still.  There just wasn't any.  I am concerned with doing this new thing right from the get-go, but it's not fear.  Fear was preventing me from doing it.  Now I'm going to do it even though I have no idea where I'll find the time.  And I'm going to do it because it's going to make a huge positive difference.  

I am increasingly pleased and impressed.  This program is going to have huge impact on my life in several directions, I can already tell.  Very much looking forward to the changes and improvements this is resulting in, and will eventually to result in.  Very surprised how smooth and easy this process has been so far.  It shouldn't, this is what I designed it to do, but I've failed enough times with FRM to be skeptical of big changes.  I'm going to let time show me what FRM 4.9 can actually do before getting my hopes up, but so far we are definitely on the intended track of making the process smooth, easy, simple, natural and comfortable compared to the previous version.

I really wanted to comment on this part. I think of FRMs as motivators that try to motivate you to let go of fears however past FRMs typically had an undertone of "do it you little punk!" to which the subconscious goes "but I don't wanna!!!!" FRM 4.9 is like a smooth talking, empathetic, best-friend/mentor who understands where you're coming from (in terms of fear) but puts its arm around you and says "you got this homie, you got this" to which the conscious and subconscious go "you know what? I can do this, I CAN do this!" If I could compare it to an actual character it would be Uncle Iroh from the Avatar: The Last Airbender television show.
 
Like you said Shannon, we won't know the full impact of FRM 4.9 until maybe about a few months into the future but it does seem like improvements were made. I'm happy for you because I know progress towards 6G has been a slog to say the least so just to see some progress is encouraging. I will say, based on my experiences with OF 5.75G, that it seems to (and I reserve the right to be wrong about this) act almost like a dentist would during a dental procedure.

Step 1: Examine the site (assessing the fear)

Step 2: Numb the site (reduce awareness/discomfort from the fear)

Step 3: Operate (fear removal)

Anyway, don't wanna hog down your journal. Just stopping by.