UMS2 Ideas

[Griffin]

I have started a youtube channel, and for me, it was obvious I want a lot of subscribers until just now when I realized, I am probably a little scared of having let's say, 100k subscribers.
Being scared of it, is going to make it a lot harder to manifest it.
So FRM might do this already, but being on UMS for 8 months has not brought this forward or solved this yet.
so an upgrade in this department might be good.

Of course, now it is brought forward but I am not really on UMS anymore as I am taking a bit of a break from UMS after not seeing any tangible results. Been off it for about 1 and a half months now.

Maybe it's coming forward because you're blooming.

This will be helped by the FRM 4.9 I just finished, which is why I haven't build UMS2 already.

Why do you fear having more subscribers?

Could it be a fear of success? I’ve noticed I have had fear when I have gotten closer to achieving a goal. 

I wonder if that fear is caused by low self worth/self esteem or some other source

it's probably a fear of success or fear or failure.
I have pretty good self-esteem in my opinion, so I don't think it stems from that(although it might you never know with the subconscious)

I am probably scared to have more subscribers because then I might fail harder when a video is not good.

I thought of the blooming and it could be that, but monetary wise I had loads of setbacks, having my flight canceled but not getting my money back, and then having to pay 900 euros for my country to fly me back because of corona.
I also do not have a job now and have no income.
soo if it is blooming its only in the fear department...


Anyway, I am looking forward to UMS2! take your time and make it a good one!