I'm watching a documentary on netflix called The goop lab, which is really about well-being, from using psychadelics in experimental treatments, to cold therapy to on how women can help take control over their sexuality.
The episode with womens sexuality was interesting and got me thinking more about how porn really mess up guys view on sexuality and women in general. The combination of very emotionally engaging material, as porn is, with providing a skewed image of what sex is, really can mess up your psychology, without you noticing it does it. Life and sex in it's natural, non-porn-influenced way is a fragile thing, as our emotions and psychology is, and that it have taken me over 1 year to recover from it, and realizing that I'm not fully recovered, tell the story about how deep it gets. And I realize how porn can mess up your relationship with women in general, not being able to be emotionally present and open, but hiding behind a skewed view on what you expect from the relationship, instead of creating a connection and a partnership with someone. It's interesting stuff. Sometimes I've been thinking that I need to be "alpha" "manly" or insert other description, but the most important thing is actually to have a good relationship with yourself. Then if you want, you can meet someone and develop your relationship from a solid ground. But trying to become alpha, before that is in place, will not bring anything good with it.
The episode with womens sexuality was interesting and got me thinking more about how porn really mess up guys view on sexuality and women in general. The combination of very emotionally engaging material, as porn is, with providing a skewed image of what sex is, really can mess up your psychology, without you noticing it does it. Life and sex in it's natural, non-porn-influenced way is a fragile thing, as our emotions and psychology is, and that it have taken me over 1 year to recover from it, and realizing that I'm not fully recovered, tell the story about how deep it gets. And I realize how porn can mess up your relationship with women in general, not being able to be emotionally present and open, but hiding behind a skewed view on what you expect from the relationship, instead of creating a connection and a partnership with someone. It's interesting stuff. Sometimes I've been thinking that I need to be "alpha" "manly" or insert other description, but the most important thing is actually to have a good relationship with yourself. Then if you want, you can meet someone and develop your relationship from a solid ground. But trying to become alpha, before that is in place, will not bring anything good with it.
