Hi Guys, It has been awhile since I journaled. I completed 3 months of UMS and after careful contemplation, I have decided to switch back to LTU. I didn’t manifest any significant sum of money but with continued use I believe it could of happened. I did have some internal changes, I tend to spend money more freely and the fear module seemed to start tearing down barriers in multiple areas of my life. However, at the end of the day I’m already doing reasonably well financially and I really missed LTU and regretted stopping after my last 6 month run. I may have manifest money by continually using UMS but I knew I was guaranteed big life changes from LTU based on my previous run.
This brings me to my next order of business, my relationship of 5 years came to an end last Sunday. It was somewhat of a mutual breakup as we had grown apart, needed different things in our life and lost the fire over time. She came into my life about 6 months after finding Subliminal Shop and pretty much using subs continuously (would estimate that I have actively ran subs 5 of the last 5.5 years). Anyways I believe she came into my life due to the increased self-confidence/self-esteem that I start to have that I never had (ASC, E1 & LTU 3.1). However, I have continued to change so much over the course of my usage that I think we grew apart (AM 6, E2, LTU 4/5). My entire thought process and lifestyle has changed. My career has taken off, I don’t enjoy drinking that often, I feel less needy and less addicted to sex (five years ago I was a borderline alcoholic and sex addict).
Some of the reasons we broke up was due to different interests and needs. However, I also needed her to have some kind of plan for her life. How were we supposed to move forward with our lives if she didn’t. She did what I see a lot of young moms do by saying my child is my only priority. I would point out that it is important for you to do well also because you are teaching your daughter the foundational mindset for her life but she chose to hide behind that wasn’t true or didn’t matter, even saying that she just wasn't raised that way. She also stopped wanting to have sex with me the better I did in life.
I bring all this up because I believe my subliminal usage has allowed me to grow and evolve at a much faster rate than someone who hadn’t been doing the same. Also, because it exposed a potential false believe system that I have had in my psyche for a long time. I always thought that the more successful and the more money I made the more women would be attracted to me. This may not always be the case, it seems some can be driven away.
I’m optimistic about my second run of the new LTU and my breakup has been the most civil I have ever had. She still wants to be friends with me which is never something some has told me before. I might start looking for someone new in a month or two (maybe even a DMSI run later into 2020) but I’m more concerned with continuing to improve myself right now.
This brings me to my next order of business, my relationship of 5 years came to an end last Sunday. It was somewhat of a mutual breakup as we had grown apart, needed different things in our life and lost the fire over time. She came into my life about 6 months after finding Subliminal Shop and pretty much using subs continuously (would estimate that I have actively ran subs 5 of the last 5.5 years). Anyways I believe she came into my life due to the increased self-confidence/self-esteem that I start to have that I never had (ASC, E1 & LTU 3.1). However, I have continued to change so much over the course of my usage that I think we grew apart (AM 6, E2, LTU 4/5). My entire thought process and lifestyle has changed. My career has taken off, I don’t enjoy drinking that often, I feel less needy and less addicted to sex (five years ago I was a borderline alcoholic and sex addict).
Some of the reasons we broke up was due to different interests and needs. However, I also needed her to have some kind of plan for her life. How were we supposed to move forward with our lives if she didn’t. She did what I see a lot of young moms do by saying my child is my only priority. I would point out that it is important for you to do well also because you are teaching your daughter the foundational mindset for her life but she chose to hide behind that wasn’t true or didn’t matter, even saying that she just wasn't raised that way. She also stopped wanting to have sex with me the better I did in life.
I bring all this up because I believe my subliminal usage has allowed me to grow and evolve at a much faster rate than someone who hadn’t been doing the same. Also, because it exposed a potential false believe system that I have had in my psyche for a long time. I always thought that the more successful and the more money I made the more women would be attracted to me. This may not always be the case, it seems some can be driven away.
I’m optimistic about my second run of the new LTU and my breakup has been the most civil I have ever had. She still wants to be friends with me which is never something some has told me before. I might start looking for someone new in a month or two (maybe even a DMSI run later into 2020) but I’m more concerned with continuing to improve myself right now.
Sub history approximate total usage in months: ASC 5G -2.5 / EPRHA 5G - 3 / LTU 5G – 9 / AM 5G – 13 / E2 5.5G – 15 / DMSI 5.5G – 4 / LTU 5.5G – 11 / UMS 5.75G – 3 / OF V2 5.75G - 1.5 / E4 5.75G - 9.25 / OF V3 5.75G - Current
