EP UMS JOURNAL

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Just spent HOURS at C.A.R.D. (the place my employment specialist works at) working on an application to become a captioning assistant. After all that time learning how to use their program to do the captioning, I spend AT LEAST an hour captioning a ONE MINUTE VIDEO and it is EXTREMELY tedious and frustrating. I sync up everything and time it all PERFECTLY, only to have the program refuse to let me add the last line at the end (with 3 seconds remaining, which IMO should be enough) because they're worried about some sort of error. So they tell me to re-sync everything using "advanced synching technology" or whatever bullshit they called it. I do my best to alter everything but it just ruins everything and throws everything off. At some point I givve up and just say F*** THIS! I hate this job already and I haven't even GOTTEN it yet! This is so tedious and frustrating and time consuming! It's just not worth it! And then one of the staff come in to tell me it's PAST time for everyone in the building to leave an I tell him "Alright, just let me shoot off an email to my employment specialist about this first" telling her basically what I wrote here: "Screw this. I don't want this job. Can't figure this out. Have to leave now anyway. I give up. I'd HATE this job if I had it. Just not worth it. Huge waste of time."


**sigh**

I am feeling demoralized right now. None of my job applications have gotten back to me, some of the websites I sign up to apply on have technical errors that make it impossible to sign in, the USF Publix turns me down after the interview and now this. I feel like I can't seem to catch a break here. And I have an ABSURDLY large UMS goal. But even when my goal was just "make more money" barely anything happened toward that end. On the other hand, the highly aggressive dorm of E3 seems to be working.