(10-25-2019, 04:39 AM)Yous Wrote:(10-24-2019, 12:36 PM)Greenduck Wrote: Holy shit, I had one of the darkest episodes I've had for a long time today. I just felt detached from reality but still emotionally stirred up, at the verge of having a breakdown. Had really big anxiety at work at my performance and just interacting with my colleague. Took a long walk from walk and it got a bit better, came home and had dinner with my parents and it just got worse, felt like I was somewhere else but still emotionally suffering. Went to bed listened to some music and just breathed through it. It took a couple of hours, but I got out on the other side, but in the gist of the episode things just felt eternal and I felt the darkness pulling me in. But I didn't shy away from it, just tried to accept it and breathe through it, and well, I got through it.
And thanks to that you have become stronger
Thanks for the encouragement.
Yesterday my boss noticed that I’m feeling better and have more drive. I have shared with him my problems with anxiety and problems in getting things done, so that was nice that he noticed that.
I went out with some friends and rebounded with some old friends which felt really nice.
I saw some glimpses of attraction of girls but it’s like it’s still out of my reach. I think that g/s/f is coming in the way of it.
My mom started complaining about her illnesses and whatnot this morning while I was a bit hung over reading the paper. And then she complained that “it’s just like talking to a wall” and I replied with I don’t know what i should say, that everyone has their problems and that was that, she angrily walked away. Maybe a bit blunt but I can’t take it with people who try to put their problems as my problems, and demand empathy. Empathy is given, not taken.
