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[EvolvingPhoenix]

So I'm in bed, trying to do a metta meditation (loving kindness meditation) to build that part of myself. I felt it really necessary for my own self healing. Dad keeps interrupting and badgering me, ruining my focus and forcing me to start completely over. He finally comes to confront me abkut it (after efusing to listen to my responses saying I'll do it later, in my own time) and leaves my door wide open, which I ask him not to do. He says "Then get up and do this and that" I say "I will... Later" to which he responds "Okay, then I'll close your door later. I really wish I was using a directional reflection shield right now. So dad's attempts at control immediately backfired on himself.

I'm going to get up, lock the door, and restart the metta meditation process. I NEED this right now, for my own healing.