09-24-2019, 12:34 AM
I'm in some really deep pain right now. Not like painfully in away that I have known before, more like a deep emotional pain where I just want to cry without a specific reason and I have to concentrate not to. I cried to a song on the bus to work today. I just feel...grateful? sad? I'm thinking about my childhood and how it felt and how much I love my parents (lol sobbing just by writing this). I'm REALLY emotional. I think I'm feeling "myself" and it's all the surpressed emotions that are coming out. I listened to ultrasonic yesteday after a 2 week break and I guess I found that it works the best, I ran the hybrid before because it was "most powerful" as I've read, but I guess most powerful isn't what I need right now.
Just going around keeping it together is hard right now, but I'm managing. Healing is definately happening. I also feel like I'm more creative and more fluent in the things I do at work, probably due to the increased emotional connection to myself.
Just going around keeping it together is hard right now, but I'm managing. Healing is definately happening. I also feel like I'm more creative and more fluent in the things I do at work, probably due to the increased emotional connection to myself.
