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[Shannon]

Hey @Shannon if my subconcious is so strong and willfull, how come my conscious mind isn't?

Because they have different components and qualities to work with.  You can reasonably argue that your conscious personality is even different than some parts of your subconscious personality.  They understand the world around them differently, think differently and have vastly different sets of abilities.

Your conscious mind would struggle to remember just 7 things for more than seconds without training, and even then without using the subconscious mind to help, you're almost certainly limited to a couple minutes.  But the subconscious never forgets anything you ever experience through any of your senses.  Ever.

The vast majority of your awareness and mental abilities, as well as your emotions, are subconscious.

Now you take a single person and pit them against a team that never sleeps (the subconscious never sleeps, it's active 24/7) and see which one wins in a tug of war.

But in some cases, given sufficient motivation, one side will be stronger than usual.  In this case, it sounds like fear has made your subconscious exceptionally strong compared to your conscious.