Man I just need to get something of my chest.
I'm tired of working on myself. Tired of working toward a goal that is so close but still is out of my reach. I just want to feel grounded and safe again, not going around in this ungrounded shitty life. I feel detached, away from the world, far away, not here, without direction. I meditate every day. I exercise. I socialize. I do every f*cking single thing that is supposed to help, and have done this for years now. Things are better, much better, but they are not good, and I'm so f*cking tired of living a life which doesn't feel right and grinding everyi single f*cking day just moving an inch toward it.
I'm tired of working on myself. Tired of working toward a goal that is so close but still is out of my reach. I just want to feel grounded and safe again, not going around in this ungrounded shitty life. I feel detached, away from the world, far away, not here, without direction. I meditate every day. I exercise. I socialize. I do every f*cking single thing that is supposed to help, and have done this for years now. Things are better, much better, but they are not good, and I'm so f*cking tired of living a life which doesn't feel right and grinding everyi single f*cking day just moving an inch toward it.
