08-07-2019, 02:30 AM
(This post was last modified: 08-07-2019, 09:17 PM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Day 68:
I was talking to my online mentor, and I asked about the current karmic cycle of guilt, projection, punishment and unforgiveness that I am stuck in, and part of his response was this:
"It is not set in stone, becoming aware of it, making better choices and taking responsibility is what can get you out.
Forgiveness is an important aspect of it, but often goes only step by step and usually requires taking responsibility...
Am I creating?
If so, I create what I experience, so then I am not a victim (in a higher sense!). Then there is no one to blame or judge.
Or I blame and judge, being a victim, but then I cannot be creating, I deny my power to create.
That would mean that it would be pretty hard to manifest or create or jump realities since I ultimately dont believe in it
"
I am starting to get it, I think. We are BOTH responsible for what we've experienced, my friend and I. We are both equal creators after all, so when I blame her, I am not taking responsibility for my own creation. When I judge her I am not taking responsibility for my own creation. When she blames me, she is not taking responsibility for her own creation. When she judges me, she is not taking responsibility for her own creation.
AND WHEN I JUDGE MYSELF...
I am not holding her responsible for her side of creation. There are no victims and therefor nobody to judge or blame, only co-creators, co-creating. If there's something about my experience I don't like, I should take responsibility for what about me or my actions or choices creates that experience AND PROMPTLY CHANGE IT. Same goes for her. A lot of the "hurtful" poems she's written about me REEK of victimhood, and really, that victim talk doesn't suit her. And judging myself for it doesn't suit me. CHANGING it suits me better. And it suits her better as well. We have both denied our power to some extent. At least for me, it's time to TAKE MY POWER BACK, and that means taking responsibility. No more of this whining bullshit! If I don't like my experience, I will CHANGE IT so that I do.
I told my online mentor that if there's one thing he's done in particular that's been really helpful, it's linking letting go of guilt with taking responsibility.
I was talking to my online mentor, and I asked about the current karmic cycle of guilt, projection, punishment and unforgiveness that I am stuck in, and part of his response was this:
"It is not set in stone, becoming aware of it, making better choices and taking responsibility is what can get you out.
Forgiveness is an important aspect of it, but often goes only step by step and usually requires taking responsibility...
Am I creating?
If so, I create what I experience, so then I am not a victim (in a higher sense!). Then there is no one to blame or judge.
Or I blame and judge, being a victim, but then I cannot be creating, I deny my power to create.
That would mean that it would be pretty hard to manifest or create or jump realities since I ultimately dont believe in it
"I am starting to get it, I think. We are BOTH responsible for what we've experienced, my friend and I. We are both equal creators after all, so when I blame her, I am not taking responsibility for my own creation. When I judge her I am not taking responsibility for my own creation. When she blames me, she is not taking responsibility for her own creation. When she judges me, she is not taking responsibility for her own creation.
AND WHEN I JUDGE MYSELF...
I am not holding her responsible for her side of creation. There are no victims and therefor nobody to judge or blame, only co-creators, co-creating. If there's something about my experience I don't like, I should take responsibility for what about me or my actions or choices creates that experience AND PROMPTLY CHANGE IT. Same goes for her. A lot of the "hurtful" poems she's written about me REEK of victimhood, and really, that victim talk doesn't suit her. And judging myself for it doesn't suit me. CHANGING it suits me better. And it suits her better as well. We have both denied our power to some extent. At least for me, it's time to TAKE MY POWER BACK, and that means taking responsibility. No more of this whining bullshit! If I don't like my experience, I will CHANGE IT so that I do.
I told my online mentor that if there's one thing he's done in particular that's been really helpful, it's linking letting go of guilt with taking responsibility.
