08-03-2019, 07:41 AM
Day 64:
I'm full of piss, vinegar and literal hate right now, but in a strangely calm way, rather than a raging way. Running another loop of E3 to help me through it. The hate's probably not going anywhere for a while. In fact, it seems to be forming and solidifying. Luckily, E3 addresses that emotion. A lot of raw emotions are filling me up right now, all of which negative. My dad's not helping. He's being very annoying right now. And after breakfast I'm going to have to do a lot of manual labour, which just puts me in a worse mood. But there's a weird calm in the center of the storm. Almost like I'm starting to just accept these emotions. I think the hate is a choice I've made and I'm starting to accept that choice. Hard to explain.
I'm full of piss, vinegar and literal hate right now, but in a strangely calm way, rather than a raging way. Running another loop of E3 to help me through it. The hate's probably not going anywhere for a while. In fact, it seems to be forming and solidifying. Luckily, E3 addresses that emotion. A lot of raw emotions are filling me up right now, all of which negative. My dad's not helping. He's being very annoying right now. And after breakfast I'm going to have to do a lot of manual labour, which just puts me in a worse mood. But there's a weird calm in the center of the storm. Almost like I'm starting to just accept these emotions. I think the hate is a choice I've made and I'm starting to accept that choice. Hard to explain.
