Transcendental Sith Lord's UMS Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Well, thought I would update since some stuff is happening.

I did get contacted back by this one guy for jobs in China. He's going to look around while I get my documents done again (with more money I really don't have) but if things workout I should be fine. I think I now realize my draw to China now. I just see a lot more opportunities for me business wise there then staying here. I think this might be why I was drawn to it during LTU as well. It would seem my bitcoin mining idea has lead to another good money making idea as well. Essentially, I plan on making my business in a particularly cold place in China (to keep the machines cool without the use of A/C) and I revisited the medical idea. Turns out in China there are quite a few universities where you can get a medical degree faster and quite cheaper than in the US for example. For example, it only costs up to 2k USD a year in order to study there.

So as is now I think for the first year there I will focus on my job, paying down any debt I have, and my business idea. In the 2nd or 3rd year I will focus on my business and medical studies. I did find out as well that the pay for a online doctor or Pharmacist is quite high as well. So I can literally do that while in any country I want. Hmm it does seem like my mind is working in ways that are seeing opportunities in a lot of ways. I think this is the plan I'm going to go through with. I honestly kind of want the medical degree for job security just in case something ever goes wrong with the business and not to mention it could easily help with purchasing new equipment for the side business.

One other thing I have noticed is that I got long amount of days without playing with 4 people I know on PS4 all that much. My interest was already waning already but now I just don't feel like doing any of that. I think its because I started to see what they really were as well. To give you an example of one of the other guys. He literally sits at his parents house cooking and doing whatever his parents tell him to do. Btw, his parents make him do all sorts of crap that takes up his time like he is some sort of work horse. On top of that he takes care of his other siblings that are handicapped in various ways. You can tell that he really gets tired of this and how he is treated but he just takes its.

He just spends his time entertaining himself to death with video games and shows. I remember when I said one time I planned on not coming back to the US at all he tried to scoff at this with the whole tired line of "Why would I want to go somewhere else. You have the best things you need staying in the US". I asked had he even been outside the US which of course he hasn't. I found this annoying and quite strange in that this guy obviously isn't living the life he wants but he is convinced that he's living the best way he can at the moment. I did notice this with too many of the other guys as well. They are just content with living through some fictional world (video games/shows, etc) and not actually doing anything with their lives. The only time they can feel "confidant" is by living through some character made of pixels.

This did remind me why I stopped reading or watching so called "red pilled" content as well. I think @Benjamin had mention he stopped dealing with such stuff in the past as well. For me it was because I would keep hearing this talk from them about self actualization and improving yourself but the majority of them that I saw didn't live by this. For many of them it seemed to them self actualization equaled simply having a "ok" job and getting to playing video games all day, etc. Don't get me wrong there were some that were quite successful and kept moving their lives forward but a lot of them weren't like this. Hell, even with women this was true in that I used to visit a discord of these so called guys and as soon as a women entered the discord they would start falling over-themselves to give her attention. In other words they acted really beta.

I think in the end here with this sub I'm just done with fake people and people not going anywhere in life. They might have dreams but they don't have the courage to pursue them. I only want to deal with people who are willing to do what it takes to get what they want out of life. I'm done dealing with lazy people or people who are willing to just settle for whatever they table scraps they have. I lived most of my life like that of being just fine with "good enough" but I'm just done with that.

Anyway, that's about all for now. Just going to get my documents ready and then hopefully this guy will have a job for me. Unfortunately, I might have to borrow from relatives to hold me over my next month until I get paid after getting a job over there.