Transcendental Sith Lord's UMS Journal

[DarthXedonias]

Well, the one interview today didn't go that well or at least I don't think so. Got there with minutes to spare only to find out the hiring manager was out at lunch. Got there and had to fill out some more paperwork. A blonde women was there as well for a position (don't know if it were the same one I was gunning for). Anyway took me quite a while to finish the paper work and I saw they were having an interview the entire time I was filling it out. I get to my interview and she only asks me a few questions then its over. It took me totally by surprise that she ended it so quickly. Only thing I can think of is she already has someone for that position she choose earlier that day or she didn't think I was a good fit.

Either way I kind of wrote that one off and I do admit I did kind of have a bit of anxiety when I got back home about how I shouldn't have blew off that postal job but soon enough I got back to just filling out applications for hours today with new vigor. Just got done minutes ago with the last one then out of no where I get emails from 2 different places wanting to set up interviews (through online or phone). On top of that I found out while making another attempt at a postal job a position opened up that was better than the last one since its closer to my house. So, maybe I was right to follow this belief that I could do better cause it does seem to be turning out to be true.

As far as internal stuff I really do feel like the not caring what people think has stayed with me since LTU. Even during the interview while looking back on it I just found myself just not giving a crap what the female interviewer thought of me. Hmm the only thing is with the PTSD symptoms I seem to still care about those hurts, etc in the past to some degree (manifested in the symptoms) but new slights since I've been running LTU and this don't even bother me. Its like I just forget about it and go about my day. Someone has a problem with me its their issue not mine. If its a mistake on my part I will own it but if its just the other person acting like a whinny little XXXXX or having a tantrum because things aren't going their way I don't give a damn really.

Edit: Scratch that, things are better than I thought. Apparently the post offices in the cities right next to me are hiring as well. So I guess I do have that I can fall back on and they are only like a 10 min drive too instead of 30 mins like the original offer.