07-05-2019, 12:44 AM
Tonight, I've been reminded of my past in a number of ways and of my past mistakes and failures. I started to feel really shitty and despite already having played E3 like 5 times today, I've decided to run the 3 loops all over again. Might be too much but I get the feeling it will help. 22 and a half minutes in, I'm already feeling better. Still not great though. My failure to come off as attractive to this woman in and of itself shames me, but the way things went down, especially how it all ended. Sometimes I feel like I can just forgive myself and move on, but other times, I just hate myself for my mistakes and failures. When that happens, I'm running E3. I'm really counting on this program to help me overcome this shitty self image I have. I really ought to find some way to make money so I can afford LTU5. That really is a goal of mine. It's looking like it'll be a long while before I can rustle up 1500 bucks though, which is a damn shame because LTU5's self esteem boosters could really come in handy lately.
