06-28-2019, 01:33 AM
Quick update:
Well, I signed the paperwork and work contract. I sent it back and now I just need to get some other stuff done with. The only problem is it isn't going to be cheap at all and I have started to run low on money. If only I hadn't wasted that money getting the papers done the way the Korean government wanted them (only to get denied) I would have a little more leeway room left. As it is now, the way things look it would seem by the time I get over there I will probably only have 500 to 1000 USD in my pockets. I have to then have that stretch out to last me until my first paycheck. It should be doing able but it will be tight, very tight. This is the fault of not listening to my "intuition" the first time and trying to get a job in Korea first. Something was telling me that I should just go to China but I just swept those feelings away.
Hopefully everything works out well. Once I regularly start getting a paycheck things should be fine. Another thing did happen today which was honestly probably a long time coming. I do every once in a while still play games with a few people on PSN. I do play this game that is like league of legends (I've heard how toxic that community can be) and I have been thinking about totally stopping. Seen how much people in the game get toxic and even the people I play with it is no different. Well, tonight it was kind of the last straw for me. I wasn't playing too well or it might have been because we were fighting against a clan. Since I was playing one of the more weaker characters they kept on diving me mainly. Anyway, I could hear my acquaintances slowly started to get annoyed and then when we lost it went into to full on yelling at me mode. Meh, before in my life I would have simply been silent and took that shit. Not anymore.
I left the party and left the game then proceeded to go do something else. I know all too well what this is about and I've seen this "beta" behavior before. Generally Beta males who can't tell off people in real life (because they are too cowardly to do it). So, they find online communities or people online that they perceive to be weaker than them so they can dominate over them. I have the feeling this is the case based on the people involved. The main guy who was yelling at me literally lives with his parents and sister who keep treating him like garbage and see him as nothing but a manual laborer. He isn't working currently again and just seems to complain about his life situation but has no plans to do anything about it.
Other guy seems to not have things as crappy but he works a dead end job from my understanding and just plays games when he gets home. The other guy is a bit better (he wasn't playing at the time actually so he's ok to a degree). He actually has his own apartment where he lives with his submissive girlfriend. The only thing with him is that he does work a restaurant job that is kind of overworking him at the moment giving him double shifts all the time. Also, forgot to mention as you can probably guess the first 2 guys I mentioned have absolutely experience with women. I know the first guy I mentioned has "tried" but ultimately failed. He always ends up doing shit for women like a orbiter and then wonders why he is constantly in the friends zone.
Anyway, I had already started thinking I should stop playing that game as it seems to bring out the worst in people and this gave me the excuse. Also, think I might not be talking to them again (if I even decide to) until I land in China. Even then I'm not even sure because I've gotten to this point where I am literally moving up in my life and these guys are literally just staying at the lowest common denominator. Don't think I have much in common with them anymore anyway. If I did I will make sure I get my boundaries established real quick. I'm ok with getting feed back on things but my line is when you start yelling at me. At that point I can easily just break off all contact, block you and be on my merry way. I don't "need" anyone else period. So, no one can just treat me anyway they wish.
Either way, I do like this change and I don't have this feeling of questioning myself as much with this stuff anymore. Before I would go back to such things, like I did with that one Indonesian guy who got brainwashed in college I told you guys about a long time ago, thinking "maybe I over reacted, etc". Now, I have no time for such people. You can go unload that garbage on the people who actually treat you like garbage but if you think I'm going to allow you to treat me like that because your too afraid to do that too people who deserve it in real life you are sorely mistaken.
Anyway, that's about all. This happen is probably good as it will pretty much cut off any other connections I have to this country. I just want to go somewhere else and start a totally new life for myself without any BS from the past holding me back at this point. As a side note I do realize since I will be low on cash this is probably another confirmation that I will need to run UMS when it comes out.
Well, I signed the paperwork and work contract. I sent it back and now I just need to get some other stuff done with. The only problem is it isn't going to be cheap at all and I have started to run low on money. If only I hadn't wasted that money getting the papers done the way the Korean government wanted them (only to get denied) I would have a little more leeway room left. As it is now, the way things look it would seem by the time I get over there I will probably only have 500 to 1000 USD in my pockets. I have to then have that stretch out to last me until my first paycheck. It should be doing able but it will be tight, very tight. This is the fault of not listening to my "intuition" the first time and trying to get a job in Korea first. Something was telling me that I should just go to China but I just swept those feelings away.
Hopefully everything works out well. Once I regularly start getting a paycheck things should be fine. Another thing did happen today which was honestly probably a long time coming. I do every once in a while still play games with a few people on PSN. I do play this game that is like league of legends (I've heard how toxic that community can be) and I have been thinking about totally stopping. Seen how much people in the game get toxic and even the people I play with it is no different. Well, tonight it was kind of the last straw for me. I wasn't playing too well or it might have been because we were fighting against a clan. Since I was playing one of the more weaker characters they kept on diving me mainly. Anyway, I could hear my acquaintances slowly started to get annoyed and then when we lost it went into to full on yelling at me mode. Meh, before in my life I would have simply been silent and took that shit. Not anymore.
I left the party and left the game then proceeded to go do something else. I know all too well what this is about and I've seen this "beta" behavior before. Generally Beta males who can't tell off people in real life (because they are too cowardly to do it). So, they find online communities or people online that they perceive to be weaker than them so they can dominate over them. I have the feeling this is the case based on the people involved. The main guy who was yelling at me literally lives with his parents and sister who keep treating him like garbage and see him as nothing but a manual laborer. He isn't working currently again and just seems to complain about his life situation but has no plans to do anything about it.
Other guy seems to not have things as crappy but he works a dead end job from my understanding and just plays games when he gets home. The other guy is a bit better (he wasn't playing at the time actually so he's ok to a degree). He actually has his own apartment where he lives with his submissive girlfriend. The only thing with him is that he does work a restaurant job that is kind of overworking him at the moment giving him double shifts all the time. Also, forgot to mention as you can probably guess the first 2 guys I mentioned have absolutely experience with women. I know the first guy I mentioned has "tried" but ultimately failed. He always ends up doing shit for women like a orbiter and then wonders why he is constantly in the friends zone.
Anyway, I had already started thinking I should stop playing that game as it seems to bring out the worst in people and this gave me the excuse. Also, think I might not be talking to them again (if I even decide to) until I land in China. Even then I'm not even sure because I've gotten to this point where I am literally moving up in my life and these guys are literally just staying at the lowest common denominator. Don't think I have much in common with them anymore anyway. If I did I will make sure I get my boundaries established real quick. I'm ok with getting feed back on things but my line is when you start yelling at me. At that point I can easily just break off all contact, block you and be on my merry way. I don't "need" anyone else period. So, no one can just treat me anyway they wish.
Either way, I do like this change and I don't have this feeling of questioning myself as much with this stuff anymore. Before I would go back to such things, like I did with that one Indonesian guy who got brainwashed in college I told you guys about a long time ago, thinking "maybe I over reacted, etc". Now, I have no time for such people. You can go unload that garbage on the people who actually treat you like garbage but if you think I'm going to allow you to treat me like that because your too afraid to do that too people who deserve it in real life you are sorely mistaken.
Anyway, that's about all. This happen is probably good as it will pretty much cut off any other connections I have to this country. I just want to go somewhere else and start a totally new life for myself without any BS from the past holding me back at this point. As a side note I do realize since I will be low on cash this is probably another confirmation that I will need to run UMS when it comes out.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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