06-05-2019, 02:05 PM
Day 5:
I feel so far off from where I want to be. I don't even have a means of steady income yet, i dont have my daily habits in order, I can't play an instrument, my physique is still skinny, etc. Etc. It feels like I'm fighting an uphill battle to become somebody I respect. And I've got all this healing to do while I slowly try to get my shit together. Still, I've come a long way from suicidal which is where i was at 2 months ago. If you go back 2 months ago on my E2 journal, you can see how suicidal I was. So maybe these subs have been working. Still, it feels like I've got a long way to go and I'm getting there slowly.
I feel so far off from where I want to be. I don't even have a means of steady income yet, i dont have my daily habits in order, I can't play an instrument, my physique is still skinny, etc. Etc. It feels like I'm fighting an uphill battle to become somebody I respect. And I've got all this healing to do while I slowly try to get my shit together. Still, I've come a long way from suicidal which is where i was at 2 months ago. If you go back 2 months ago on my E2 journal, you can see how suicidal I was. So maybe these subs have been working. Still, it feels like I've got a long way to go and I'm getting there slowly.
