06-04-2019, 08:14 AM
Anyway, I just remembered to write about an experience I had last night while stoned. I told myself last night I would write about it the next day, so here goes:
I got stoned and faced my fear. I would have fearful thoughts and I would say to myself "Okay, I'm experiencing fear. The best thing to do is to process it and let it heal" So I spent some time processing my fear. I really do think fear is at the core of a lot of issues I have, and I believe I have the same problem as someone else on these forums who thinks they may have been through a traumatic experience within their first 6 months of life. So I'm processing OLD fear, and last night, under the influence of marijuana, I faced it head on and let myself feel the fear and let it heal/process. It didn't magically cure me of al my fears, but I think it was a step in the right direction. I dunno if the FRM had anything to do with it or if that was just all me and the weed. I know I was advised by my online mentor to process the fear like that, so it could also just be me following that advice. Anyway, I figured it was worth writing in my journal about. It felt profound what I was experiencing at the time, because I was learning to try and heal that fear with love. Dunno if E3 helped at all or if that experience was just brought on by the weed and I chose to react to it the way I've been taught to, but either way, I figured it's worth noting.
I got stoned and faced my fear. I would have fearful thoughts and I would say to myself "Okay, I'm experiencing fear. The best thing to do is to process it and let it heal" So I spent some time processing my fear. I really do think fear is at the core of a lot of issues I have, and I believe I have the same problem as someone else on these forums who thinks they may have been through a traumatic experience within their first 6 months of life. So I'm processing OLD fear, and last night, under the influence of marijuana, I faced it head on and let myself feel the fear and let it heal/process. It didn't magically cure me of al my fears, but I think it was a step in the right direction. I dunno if the FRM had anything to do with it or if that was just all me and the weed. I know I was advised by my online mentor to process the fear like that, so it could also just be me following that advice. Anyway, I figured it was worth writing in my journal about. It felt profound what I was experiencing at the time, because I was learning to try and heal that fear with love. Dunno if E3 helped at all or if that experience was just brought on by the weed and I chose to react to it the way I've been taught to, but either way, I figured it's worth noting.
