06-02-2019, 09:50 AM
I am slowly but steadily overcoming guilt, but also fear and shame, but not in the same obvious manner. All the three emotions have really been setting myself back in my ability to live and enjoy life, on a very fundamental and profound level. I have been searching for meaning in life (as we humans tend to do..) on a complex level, but I am starting to understand the beauty in the simple enjoyments of life such as companionship, trust and work. Things I have dreaded before and seen as a necessary evil of life, while chasing something that I though was joy, but really never had any idea of what it looked like, so even if I catched it for a glimpse it would just fall right through my fingers.
