Things are moving forward.. I have a much easier time working, keeping focus, and moving forward in doing stuff, taking initiative, etc. My head is clearer, my memory is better. I'm more stable.
Yesterday while driving I felt a surge of positivity and happiness inside, I found a parking spot and walked to my friend and god I felt AWESOME. Really like no stress, just being happy. Can't remember I felt like that..ever. I enjoy music more and more. I feel more and more embodied. There is still some anxiety trapped inside my body but it's slowly being worked on during the nights listening to LTU and in my meditation and TRE exercises. I'm now positive that I will overcome this fully just given enough time.
I have gotten a deeper relationship with a girl-friend that I have been chatting with some before and hanging out with but we are becoming better and better friends and I really connected with her this weekend. Telling about how I have felt during the latest year and she was so comforting and helped me to relax, and told me she enjoy my company because she don't have to pretend to be anyone but can just be herself (which was really a compliment and I felt happy for being that person).
So, things are growing better. And I have just listened a bit more than one month..
EDIT:
I read some posts around the forum and I realized somewhat what I am experiencing right now. It feels like I am breaking new ground and I have been thinking what this really means and who it is who is really breaking that new ground, because I don't really recognize who I am. I don't know who I am. Really. I have been terrified of that though before but now I can accept it. Probably because I acknowledge it on the basis that I am embarked on a journey to get to know who I am. I have been lost, but now I somewhat can see the light. And that light is my own desires, what I want with my life. I am just about to be able to figure that out, from before just living in a zombie-state going on with my life, not being able to stop and feel what I really want deep down. LTU5 is making this possible, and even though I am still lost, I know that I will find an answer within which is stable and will guide me towards fulfilling my own purpose. That is fundamental. I have gone around so long thinking that I had no purpose, that I was just passing through.
Yesterday while driving I felt a surge of positivity and happiness inside, I found a parking spot and walked to my friend and god I felt AWESOME. Really like no stress, just being happy. Can't remember I felt like that..ever. I enjoy music more and more. I feel more and more embodied. There is still some anxiety trapped inside my body but it's slowly being worked on during the nights listening to LTU and in my meditation and TRE exercises. I'm now positive that I will overcome this fully just given enough time.
I have gotten a deeper relationship with a girl-friend that I have been chatting with some before and hanging out with but we are becoming better and better friends and I really connected with her this weekend. Telling about how I have felt during the latest year and she was so comforting and helped me to relax, and told me she enjoy my company because she don't have to pretend to be anyone but can just be herself (which was really a compliment and I felt happy for being that person).
So, things are growing better. And I have just listened a bit more than one month..
EDIT:
I read some posts around the forum and I realized somewhat what I am experiencing right now. It feels like I am breaking new ground and I have been thinking what this really means and who it is who is really breaking that new ground, because I don't really recognize who I am. I don't know who I am. Really. I have been terrified of that though before but now I can accept it. Probably because I acknowledge it on the basis that I am embarked on a journey to get to know who I am. I have been lost, but now I somewhat can see the light. And that light is my own desires, what I want with my life. I am just about to be able to figure that out, from before just living in a zombie-state going on with my life, not being able to stop and feel what I really want deep down. LTU5 is making this possible, and even though I am still lost, I know that I will find an answer within which is stable and will guide me towards fulfilling my own purpose. That is fundamental. I have gone around so long thinking that I had no purpose, that I was just passing through.
